" Subspace...you know I'd read so much about this that it almost seemed
like some kind of nirvana, but I never dreamed I'd actually experience it.
At least I'm assuming that's what happened. I certainly managed to get so
far in to myself that I left the stresses of my life behind for a while. I
can clearly remember hearing you and one of my friends talking
about me, but being totally uninterested in what was said. That was so
totally outside my usual behaviour it's taken me until now to realise that
it even happened.
I can even tell you the exact moment that I slipped into it. I know I
was still me all through the first set of photos right up until just after
you put the chain round the top of my arms. It was when you touched me to
roll me sideways that I reacted. I remember clearly tensing right up...I'm
usually very jealous in guarding my personal space. Then suddenly I relaxed
and quite literally put myself in your hands. I can even remember thinking
that we hadn't discussed safewords, then deciding that my friends would act
for me. I do know the freedom was totally addictive and it confirmed my
suspicions that I do have the potential to sub.
Actually this was part of the reason I rushed upstairs to change so
quickly the small rational part of my mind which was telling me
that walking round with whip marks on my back for the rest of the night was
asking for trouble. <g>

Most of all I DO NOT regret meeting you, or anything that followed.
Hopefully the circumstances will be such that I'll have the chance to play
again...if not I've got some great memories to keep me *very* warm at night.
I thank you again for that."